When I reflect on my continued journey of healing, I am reminded of how often I seek temporary comforts (such as hobbies, work, ice cream - oh, how I love homemade ice cream, etc) to distract me when I am feeling distress. I definitely get quick relief from these temporary comforts, but I still feel a lack of fulfillment since I didn't allow myself to work through the distress I was experiencing. Too often, I am caught up in distractions and too often, I make the mistake of thinking that watching a favorite movie will take away the level of pain I was experiencing. The favorite movie may lessen the level of pain, but the pain is still there. I am learning that it is important to allow myself to feel the pain because then I am able to comfort others and my heart will grow more in compassion and empathy.
Lately, I am learning to address the pain and distress with more honesty, allowing myself the grace to feel 'bad,' uncomfortable or sad because the pain is only temporary. I am learning to focus on what matters most and what is truthful in my life. And that is that I have a relationship with a God that comforts me without failure, a God that loves me unconditionally and a God that brings joy in pain and clarity in chaos. I am also realistic too. I know I'll have hard days and good days. I know that I'll have trials and challenges. But I also know that I have a God that isn't a temporary comfort, and for this truth I am deeply grateful that I am never alone. I hope that you know that no matter your trails and distress, you are never alone. God is there to comfort you and He will provide others to be there to comfort you as well. And we just have to be willing to open our hearts. Sending love and hugs to those reading this.